[ Bazz can’t help the relieved sigh that escapes him. Jugram’s accepting his presence, albeit grudgingly. He’s not leaving him alone again. It’s a confirmation he hadn’t known he needed, that this isn’t like the first time. Bazz won’t be abandoned, left to navigate an unfamiliar world without a familiar face. It lifts a weight off of Bazz’s chest that he hadn’t even previously noticed. And wow, that’s pretty pathetic, being this wrapped up in what Jugram does.
He really should do something about that. The smart thing to do would be to cut Jugram from his life entirely, to move on. If Jugram weren’t here, the wound left by his betrayal might in time have healed. But now that the two of them are here together, to break apart is almost unthinkable. ]
Thanks. [ Stepping around the pits, Bazz can’t help but watch the way Jugram moves. Confident in a way Bazz isn’t yet, far more familiar with the landscape. It’s unfair! Nobody should be able to look this good after dying. He knows it’s stupid, but it’s like Jugram wants him to suffer. How did the other Sternritter ever get anything done, looking at him? ]
What, got some bodies to hide? [ An attempt at a joke, if a weak one. Still, the idea of Jugram hiding something from him is irritating, prickling at his skin. He’s always closed off, never showing himself fully to the world. Hell, never showing himself fully to Bazz. And they’ve known each other for almost as long as they’ve been alive! If anyone has a right to see into the depths of Jugram’s heart, it’s Bazz. He just wants some honesty for once. A break from being ignored and underestimated and forgotten.
But Jugram’s being more open than he has for centuries. This is progress. Bazz can accept this.
And if he goes poking around in Jugram’s stuff, well, Jugram should have known better than to try to hide anything from him. ]
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He really should do something about that. The smart thing to do would be to cut Jugram from his life entirely, to move on. If Jugram weren’t here, the wound left by his betrayal might in time have healed. But now that the two of them are here together, to break apart is almost unthinkable. ]
Thanks. [ Stepping around the pits, Bazz can’t help but watch the way Jugram moves. Confident in a way Bazz isn’t yet, far more familiar with the landscape. It’s unfair! Nobody should be able to look this good after dying. He knows it’s stupid, but it’s like Jugram wants him to suffer. How did the other Sternritter ever get anything done, looking at him? ]
What, got some bodies to hide? [ An attempt at a joke, if a weak one. Still, the idea of Jugram hiding something from him is irritating, prickling at his skin. He’s always closed off, never showing himself fully to the world. Hell, never showing himself fully to Bazz. And they’ve known each other for almost as long as they’ve been alive! If anyone has a right to see into the depths of Jugram’s heart, it’s Bazz. He just wants some honesty for once. A break from being ignored and underestimated and forgotten.
But Jugram’s being more open than he has for centuries. This is progress. Bazz can accept this.
And if he goes poking around in Jugram’s stuff, well, Jugram should have known better than to try to hide anything from him. ]